The Atlantean

yall know i rarely post vents but here it goes. over a year ago i posted this pic with a description of a night i had with a boy i am friends with. At the time our moms really wanted us to get together. since then he has told me he likes me 3 times and 3 times i had said no either because i was in a relationship or because he goes to school 3 hours away. well now we are going to be going to the same school next year and he has a girlfriend….. i know he still likes me but we also agreed that we wouldnt try to date until we were in the same place. the thing is…. two weeks ago i went to visit him for the weekend and we slept in the same bed cuddled up together the two nights i was there which is NOT something a guy with a girlfriend does. we have been friends for almost 6 years now and i just cant imagine my life without him. i can tell its getting hard for both of us with all of the unexpressed feeling you could actually cut the tension with a knife. i just….. i dont know what to do and no one really gets it and i needed to rant. i cant really think about much else right now :/ i never thought i would fall for my best friend and now that i have i really hope i didnt miss my chance with the one person that makes me happy no matter what and goes out of his way to make sure im ok even if he is far away. i just hope i dont fuck this up

yall know i rarely post vents but here it goes. over a year ago i posted this pic with a description of a night i had with a boy i am friends with. At the time our moms really wanted us to get together. since then he has told me he likes me 3 times and 3 times i had said no either because i was in a relationship or because he goes to school 3 hours away. well now we are going to be going to the same school next year and he has a girlfriend….. i know he still likes me but we also agreed that we wouldnt try to date until we were in the same place. the thing is…. two weeks ago i went to visit him for the weekend and we slept in the same bed cuddled up together the two nights i was there which is NOT something a guy with a girlfriend does. we have been friends for almost 6 years now and i just cant imagine my life without him. i can tell its getting hard for both of us with all of the unexpressed feeling you could actually cut the tension with a knife. i just….. i dont know what to do and no one really gets it and i needed to rant. i cant really think about much else right now :/ i never thought i would fall for my best friend and now that i have i really hope i didnt miss my chance with the one person that makes me happy no matter what and goes out of his way to make sure im ok even if he is far away. i just hope i dont fuck this up